I never knew a month that is supposed to be so joyous could be so devastating, I’ve lost so many people over the years in the month of December, at least 3 a year since 2001, smh its awful, I know all my other family members are going through their own stages of grief and I don’t want to burden them with mine. It just sucks to want to be happy but be filled with so much hurt and pain. I need a distraction something or someone to keep me from crying my eyes out I just miss my fam and friends so much and it hurts so bad not to have them and be able to call them up or see them and hug them and tell them just how much I love them. It hurts I wish I would have known that life was this hurtful.
People who act like they are single just to get some ass make me mad. Like I come across women all the time who are like ‘I just got out of a two year relationship we were in love’ and I ask why they split and she tells me oh we weren’t right for each other. Then I get to know and spend time with them (before sex) and notice they still text, call, and see them all the time. I am the type of girl who will ask like yo what’s that about? The usual reply is oh ‘we are best friends’ ha ha ha cracks me up because I know how those relationships can be, your best friend is sometime the only person you can have sex with and not feel like you’re cheating on your girl. Lol so the girl thinks things are cool but you’re just waiting for the proof, and after asking numerous times if they are still together you get the ‘we never stopped dating’. OH so I’m just the fling? Lmfao good thing I didn’t label you cause I’d be crushed lmfao well just ranting and whoever is reading, thanks
When title just aren’t enough, it seems as if people use that as an excuse rather to get out or into a relationship of any sort. If you are ‘dating’ or ‘seeing’ someone people these days want to label their commitment but they don’t actually want to commit. I say and believe this because women (and I say this from my womanly perspective) tend to trap their partner by giving titles of ‘boyfriend, girlfriend or Fuck buddy’ to make them feel less guilty about actions that take place in the time they are together. They also use lose terms such as ‘friend, or buddy’ when they don’t necessarily want to be tied down but they want people to know that they are somewhat taken. To me its not a commitment unless both parties involved say that we are a couple and we will be monogamous. This brings me to monogamy anyways it is 2010 guys and gals there is no such thing as monogamy not even in marriages that’s why the word ‘affair’ is around and the top reasons so many people are going through separation and divorce. Be real with each other and yourself, if yall are just in it for the sex then say it, don’t try to tie each other down and act like yall are so into each other when you only want the physical, it is totally acceptable to have a FWB relationship ok? So be open, Honest, and wrap clap and close it up :) enjoy life but be safe about it we’re young and want to have fun so just be you.
"I’m so glad that I don’t fuck men, last nite not only did the condom break lol but I let her fuck me raw lol I never would have done it but I wanted it real bad. It was the best sex I’ve ever had, its funny because we were watching tv then she went upstairs and came back down and was like ‘sit on my lap baby’ I felt it and was like ‘oh god’ lol I was terrified but I took it like a good girl :) we hit every position known to man kind and I loved every second of it"
oooooohhhhh bare with me here, this was my love, my life, my strength..my cousin the one who took care of me when everyone else wanted to give up on me she was there she was my back bone…..ooohhh baby gurl left behind a beautiful son and took one with her. I miss you telly I will NEVA forget you I cant!!!!!
to my cuzo…we were in class when they made the announcement that J.R. from Ike had passed away, I wanted soo badly to believe it was someone else, knowing the whole time it was you… still to this day cant pass that intersection without crying I miss you I love you </3
R.I.P. baby boy mouse…you were my first little cousin that I met on my dad’s side of the family..and I wasnt able to be there when you passed but what hurts the most is i saw you DAYS before it happened..I love you you are always in my heart baby